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Silent Love

By Billy IAmWhoIAm

Email: iamwhoiam@codeysworld.com

Copyright © 2007 by Billy IAmWhoIAm.
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  1.  
    1. There is a boy I like a lot
    2. Every morning, I wait by our lockers
    3. Just to catch a glimpse of you
    4. On my heart, your face is etched
    5. I ache to tell you of my love
    6. Your response, I cannot chance
  2.  
    1. I cannot tell my dreams for us
    2. More than once, I thought to tell
    3. Only on paper I can speak
    4. When I see you, I always smile
    5. If you see me, you smile back
    6. And all that day I float on air
  3.  
    1. I love your eyes, green like jade
    2. On some days, your eyes are sad
    3. School this year is nearly done
    4. My heart is flip-flopping
    5. I have to do something
    6. Your years are done here
  4.  
    1. I made up my mind
    2. It would be today I talk to you
    3. Please hurry before I lose my courage
    4. I find a letter in my locker
    5. There I wait for you to show
    6. Who is it from I do not know
  5.  
    1. I waited till the second bell
    2. But you never did show
    3. I got to class just on time
    4. Thinking of you still lying in bed
    5. Had me thinking those thoughts again
  6.  
    1. I wasn’t listening to the PA today
    2. Till I heard your beautiful name
    3. I heard a gasp go through the class
    4. Did you do something really tight
    5. Why are all the girls crying
  7.  
    1. I heard the words, you are dead
    2. It can’t be true, I’m still asleep
    3. From a nightmare I dare not wake
    4. My head is spinning, I cannot see
    5. I cannot breathe, it cannot be
  8.  
    1. A friend of mine is shaking me
    2. He is asking “are you okay”
    3. All I can do is shake my head
    4. I cannot stand, I lean on him
    5. He pulls me out into the hall
  9.  
    1. When all is well, we’re grown up
    2. When we hurt, we’re kids again
  10.  
    1. My friend and I are pulled apart
    2. The mass of others carries me along
    3. My tears are falling, where do I go
    4. I see a bench, reach it I must
  11.  
    1. They are here, his closest friends
    2. They are in shock as much as I
    3. His best friend is falling apart
    4. In his hand, he has a paper
    5. I look down and see again
    6. The letter from my locker
    7. Crumbled in my hand
  12.  
    1. With trembling fingers I tear it open
    2. I look at the bottom, I see his name
    3. From the top, I read his words
  13.  
    1. “I’m not sure if you know who I am
    2. when I dare to look at you
    3. I always saw you were smiling
    4. I hung around our lockers
    5. Waiting to catch a glimpse of you
    6. Trying to get the nerve to speak
    7. Twice, I did follow you home
    8. Too far back for you to know
    9. I wanted so bad to run to you
    10. Your response, I could not chance
    11. If only I knew you are like me
    12. I am so lonely it hurts like hell
    13. If only one boy who is like me
    14. Would reach out and talk
    15. I’m so scared I don’t dare
    16. I’m so sorry what I write
    17. I have to tell you
    18. How much I Love You
    19. Please don’t hate me
    20. ’Cause I’m queer
    21. I’d rather be dead than live like this”
  14.  
    1. I cannot believe he loved me
    2. Now the truth is sinking in
    3. The boy I adored was in love with me
    4. Had I told him I Love You
    5. He would be alive and in my arms
  15.  
    1. I feel it from deep inside
    2. My chest is tight
    3. My throat is dry
    4. What erupts is a primal scream
    5. Through my tears shouting our pain